Because I am the orbiting moon
You will always remain as Earth
Thursday, January 31, 2008 // 1:23 AM
Ahh...here's the answer.
We are who we are because of our own convictions. I'm helping people because others have helped me in the past. its all starting to make sense.
And to think all this was figured out by just talking a walk. so here's a piece of advice to all. If you're ever in doubt about where,why,what,when or how ur doing things....take a look at back at ur own past and find the answer there.
The seeds of our future lie buried in our past.
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
Monday, January 28, 2008 // 1:49 AM
THIS IS KILLING ME.
Deep down inside in my soul...im fine. but what troubles me are others.
Why do people come to me for help? honestly, i dont mind them. In fact, I LOVE to help them and see them through. yet i cannot understand what is it about me that makes them come to me.
I am just a mortal man. no more human and no more different than any other. but when I cannot help these people...I feel like I've disappointed them to the core. Worse still, people still come to me for help when im the one who needs it the most. I cant turn them down surely? who would.
All im saying is.....
Please dont put high hopes and believe in me all the time. I'm just one person who is no different. I eat everyday, go to school, fall sick, go to the toilet and play. I can be your confidant yes but at this point of my life... im very diminished.
To be honest, Im not half the person I used to be. Im still trying to get back on my own two feet here. people around me are so depressed. hardly a cheerful soul nowadays. Ive tried to be the one cheering others up n be naturally cheerful but I find that impossible these days.
I do my best but there's only so much I can do to help.
I duno ah. ever since i started helping people....it suddenly feels like this was what i was meant to do. When i think of joining a humanitarian grp when i grow up....it suddenly feels like its my destiny and my life is closer to becoming complete. but on one hand im in two minds....
1)Its a good cause
2) I cant do this alone.
anyone wants to join me please?and help me in the process!
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
Thursday, January 17, 2008 // 1:01 AM
back here again. update on a few things
npcc. so its a new year eh? 2008 already. i still remember the first time i entered npcc.12 jan was the recruitment drive. and my first training was after peer support programme. i can remember the first person who talked to us, the new cadets. HO wendy...no not winifred's sister. the other HO wendy. she was talking about movement in npcc. n she asked the sec2s to do a demonstration of movement wise when standing up n sitting down. ahhhh....good memories.
but now i have become the trainer. an officer...a motivator, leader,friend and confidant of these people. my work is far from over. n my CI-ship ends in 2011. it'll be ten years of npcc for me.
10 long fruitful bittersweet years. 5 years as a cadet. 5 years as an officer. i intend to repay what npcc has made me today. n may it pass on to others still to come.
npcc annual parade.
my first parade ever as an officer. well, here was how it went. we got to write down the positions according to our choices. this was what i wrote.
1) ceremonial flag bearer
2) guard turnout
3) Gold unit flag party commander
4) Guard of honour contingent commander
5) parade commander (I know what most of you are thinking already.haha)
6) CI in attendance
7) mass flag party commander
8) supporting contingent commander
9) parade trainer
I pray I get the flag bearer position. there were 4 other people including me who went for flag bearer selection. n 3 of them were really good coz they were flag bearers in previous npcc day parades. buuut...the chance is there. flag bearers are usually chosen according to their height standards. desmond was so tall he couldnt even put the sling on n jolene isnt coming for the 25jan training. lets hope i do get the position along with liling and terence.
but then again.....i do hope no one else comes on 25 jan!!!. shit.
business fund project n presentation. i dont wanna say anything much about this. Thank you to all those who gave the support for my project n thanks to K752 for encouraging me on during presentation. kudos to all of you!. im feeling pretty confident about it now.
social life? oh well...im free most of the time really. but sad to say others dont have such a luxury. my o lvl and A lvl friends are working. my poly friends in yr2 are super busy. typical lah. yr 2 is super stress in poly. sooo all dats left is K 752 though they still need time to adjust to life in poly,with me being an exception since i was in TP law before i came to engine.
ahh. lets all pray for a fruitful 2008 yeah? ohh n to all my friends taking their o lvl results...all the best and BETTER TELL ME TAU!...i assure you this is not the end.
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
Tuesday, January 8, 2008 // 3:27 AM
Doing my business fundamentals project now. I restarted the whole thing n im doing the slogan now.
ok
slogans for ice cream. I learnt in Adam Khoo dat slogans usually are in 3 words. they sound nice when spoken. sooo here were some crazy ones i came up with
-Lick or Suck
-Satisfy your tongue
-Bite with love
I assure all of you. I am NOT horny now. trust me! =)
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
