The 2nd dream happened.exactly as it should be.

All is lost.

All I can say is... if 18 years of life is all destined for this one moment in life, so be it. Ive seen what happened and I know what will happen. I've got to do something.


or I can never answer myself to God.

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Its saturday. should have gone for Simei United training but didnt go. I dont wanna get pushed around again. but dont get me wrong. I enjoyed the times we had. for good or for worse. it'll remain and that's what matters most.

Games against Madcats,FECA,Royals and Raptors. I played against madcats and nearly scored. I made two offline clearances against FECA n Royals each. And I had my BALLS kicked with a BALL against raptors. heh.

Thank you Simei United FC.Good luck for the future and strive on to div1.

Home kit: white
Away kit: orange
Goalkeeper jersey: blue


oh yah. raidah gave me this.


i have to admit. seriously. for the umpteenth time....I AM FUCKING OLD! SIALA.

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BACK AT LAST

Good news first. problems settled.i think. even so, we have other alternatives. haha.

Bad news.not bad news to me but bad news to everyone and that is

"dont give me power. i'll be too much to handle for you."



EVERY SINGLE ELEMENT IS WORKING. IM FREE AT LONG LAST!

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HIATUS

THEY'RE ALL IN DEEP SHIT AND I GOTTA HELP CLEAR THIS MESS OR WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD!

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now what?
how the hell im supposed to tell everyone the bad news when they've been looking forward to it the whole year?
how can i tell them that their morale booster and source of motivation just got wiped out in one day?
how can i tell them that their hard efforts of proving worthy just ended up the opposite way?

How would I answer MYSELF to THEM?
HOW CAN THIS UNIT CONTINUE TO FUNCTION?
If I dont get it, AT LEAST LET THEM HAVE IT! AT LEAST THEM!

Dont get me wrong. I do want to be their parade commander and be proud of commanding a team that's proven itself time and time again. But not like this. not this way. even my CIs are already so disappointed and all. There's no way I can bring everyone up like this.

bottomline for me: im not showing my face UNTIL i get mrs neo's assurance.

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Forgive the philosophical or emo posts this week. just this week.
im growing old anyway so yeah. cant blame me what.haha

So to a life of servitude( for lack of a better word lah. im not becoming a slave). My purpose with a passion.

so my destiny is defined. There's no turning back now because every single element is falling into place.

All those dreams were real.
All those feelings were right.
All those signs were true.

For the better or worse.its all meant to be

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back to school.some things never change huh? like me sleeping in system concepts AGAIN! HAHAHA

so anyway... results.

maths 2 67/100. wait, lemme finish. mrs lam was pissed with me coz she had to minus off marks due to ALOT of careless mistakes which are super duper retarded on my part. so final score was 50/100. HAHAHA. heck lah. at least the paper i can do right.

Qmethod still no difference. 38/50. ms tng was ALSO pissed with me. coz i wrote this

Standard variation = 0
variance = 0

HAHAHAHA! SIALA FIR! GO AND DIE AH!. if not get an A liao. but got a b+ instead. dammit. apparently i havent learnt from my graded lab which i got 38.5/50 also and with the same stupid answer of

standard variation = 0
variance = 0

I should go kill myself. coz danny is definitely gonna kill me also. why? for the best answer in the entire world of economics.

Elasticity = 10 ( which means if a product were to change its price by 1 cent, thousands of ppl would change or switch product.) ok laugh till you die. taunt me coz i know im a fat fool and the whole class is gonna laugh when they hear this answer.haha

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Self realisation is the best form of learning.

yesterday's drill competition and todays self reflection has done wonders. I realised some things are less complex and are actually less difficult than they seem. Its all in your head really. I feel more alive and more stronger than before.

I know where I stand and what I can do. I understand my life's destiny.

I always knew that I was making the right choice coming back as a CI. And there is not a day that goes by that I regret signing up for CIBTC. I love npcc and dunman npcc unit.haha. things are looking up for us guys. we're gaining up now. gold unit last year 1st for soccer competition during games day, samuel got best commander for drill com.and 1st for fancy drill FOR THE 1ST TIME IN OUR HISTORY.Let's push to greater heights.

Im ready for school, im ready to go for my ppcdl, im ready to go back to track and field but sad to say, I have to leave simei united. I just cant come up with the money and I only intend to play soccer at a club level. Nonetheless, i'll still join them for saturday trainings if possible.

Life is good. and its only going to get better.

Most importantly, Im ready to do what I should have done a long time ago. Im ready to do what my heart has been telling me to do a long time ago.

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what a rush. really. this whole week has been nothing but npcc all the way. had to move the equipment from old block 2nd floor to the new room. with just six ppl. took us 3 days to do it lah. from 9am-7pm.

the new hall is awesome. damn huge i tell you. can really fit the whole school in it. the npcc room is a bit small lah. but oh well, we gotta fit in what we have right?

SO yeah...we had our drill competition at haising yesterday.

1st for fancy drill
joint 2nd best commander
3rd overall.

haha. I guess i shd have focused more on the standard drills part as i did for fancy drill but that was AWESOME. 1ST FOR FANCY DRILL! That's a milestone in my life. really. but of course it was all done by the cadets and it goes without saying im proud of all them.


photos will be up soon
sooo next stop...speech day 2008! and yours truly is the parade commander =)

here's the fancy drill video. sorry for the shakiness. DAMN NERVOUS LAAHHH!

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ahhh. lost prophets. how did it get defunct with songs like this!??!




I dunno why embed for rooftops was disabled on youtube. so i used imeem instead.







I dont think lost prophets made a video for this song. and for good reason! I cant imagine how many people felt when they heard this song. especially mmd!






THE ALL TIME FAVOURITE OF LOST PROPHETS! LAST TRAIN HOME!

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hiatus over.
5b bbq.npcc drill comp. raidah's chalet. what a week. and whats to come.


its been a whole week of sentiments really. There's so much to say and i wish i had.

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5B 06 bbq tmr! WOOOOHOOOOO!

but at the same time, im missing the singapore vs saudi arabia match. goddamnit. okok. i better get back to work.

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The dream is the same every time. WITH THAT DOOR AS THE ONLY EGRESS.

I'm losing it. DREAMS DONT APPEAR EVERY NIGHT SO WHY MUST THIS ONE APPEAR ALL THE TIME?

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That's it.

All the irregular sleeping hours, eating between meals(which are already so improper and unhealthy), research and npcc trainings have finally caught up with me. I wont be doing health check on my cadets later on i guess since I havent done my part.

A splitting headache at the back of my head to the roof of my mouth and the nightmare that I had of that apocalyptic grave and what happened when it was open. That's the last straw. seriously.

I'm taking a time out or a hiatus. for a very long time.

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2nd last question for my Principles of Economics paper.

calculate price elasticity of demand for blablablabla.

my answer: 10

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAH!!!!

NABUAY CHEEBYE! (as Ben would say)

sialaaaa...e= 10. DATS FUCKING ELASTIC LIAO. now then i realise. hahaha. I guess danny would chop my head off ever since i put the most stupid answer for macroeconomics question during the quiz.hahaha.

yes yes. im fucked up and crazy.thanks for the compliment!

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let me update quickly before SOMEONE nags at me to GO STUDY! hahaha.

Im seriously concerned about the progress of my unit. especially the CIs. not the NCOs. yesss. the CIs.

Drill comm is coming up.less than 3 more weeks left. and fancy drill is not even started on. something's got to give.

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on a lighter note

this is the travis barker remix of 'Crank That' by soulja boy. the remix sounds a whole lot better compared to the original lah.

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3-3.last minute goal. played that left back position again

Did anyone in the team realise that all 3 goals we conceded were crossed in from the right and scored at the centre? did anyone realise they didnt even manage to cross from the left even though they had three people on that flank?

if you did, good for you.
if you didnt, take a good look next time.

I have never made a mistake in the games I played that has led to a goal.thats all im saying bcoz im not a good player myself.

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I'd probably be your only servant in this world

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