wah siala. now is a really inconvenient time to be working. alot of matters have cropped up,exams are coming and time is running out. this means I have to explain myself to Eric PERSONALLY. not to the store managers, venus or doreen. but Eric alone.

lets hope he comes tomorrow.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

today is the weirdest day of my life.

it begins with this quote

" Someday you will fulfill your destiny.Someday you will be all that you can ever be.
But you will always remain who you are from the beginning"

and it ends with this

" There is NO right or wrong. There is only what is best and what is not"

what a day.
anyway,
I know now what I am supposed to do. what all the signs meant. its my undoing

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

I know you're losing sleep over me
I know you'll relive every moment
Below sheets where dreams are made

I know you'll cover your eyes
I know you'll quiver when fingers touch your side
But it all coincides some way

Move a little closer, hold me tighter
I'll stay if you're gonna keep me in line
Don't want it to be over, move move slower
I'll stay if you're gonna keep me in line (in line)

I know everything reminds you of me
Even the songs you thought I'd never sing
I know you'll mess up your hair
I know you'll do things you would never dare
But it all coincides in some way

Now we're here, with the lights turned low
You won't regret anything we do
It's up to you, now make your move

Move a little closer, hold me tighter
I'll stay if you're gonna keep me in line(in line)
Don't want it to be over, move move slower
I'll stay if you're gonna keep me, so keep me(in line)

move a little closer(keep me in line)
move a little closer(keep me in line)
move a little closer

I'll stay
I'll stay

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dicqGqvRmfU

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

I'm going to say this just once in my life and never again.



I have ALWAYS hated being trustworthy or dependable because ALMOST every person I met wouldnt want ANY error from me. and if I made a mistake, im the biggest sinner in the world.

so anyway,

got back comp prog quiz 3,assignment 3 and lab test. all three of them are A's but I dont know if its enough to push me up from the graded labs and flow chart.

4 PROJECTS DOWN! ANOTHER 2 MORE TO GO. QMETHOD AND SYSTEM CONCEPTS WORLD CAFE!

finished computer programming project in just 4 hours instead of 2 days. BUT ALL THANKS TO BERNARD! or I would be straining my eyes on that stupid case '3' ARRAY!.

I'll get your seahorse-crayfish-jellyfish-shrimp-stingray-manta ray-pufferfish-ikan bilis whatever when we go makan next time. HAHAHA.

speaking of seafood, me and sean went on an impromptu crabbing trip at pasir ris. kinda good day actually but we were beaten to the spot by 4 other people. But I daresay Sungai Api-Api is becoming more productive compared to the previous years.

we caught a hermit crab as well! pictures will be up soon.

*Dialougue*

Sean: Eh, the monitor lizard come out of the water already

Me:WHERE?!

Sean:THERE! on top of the waterbreaker.

Me: lets go catch him!

Sean: YEAH BABY!

too bad it saw us and cabut when we were approaching it. haiz. it would have made a good companion im sure =)

JIA YOU EVERYONE! MAIN EXAMS COMING LIAO! =)

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

i was sick on sunday so i couldnt come to work.

you got a problem with that eh? just because i dont come for work once you think i suka-suka dont want to come?

its not like im so free with school exams and ATC coming up but I still come dont I?
sheesh.

maybe doreen was just pissed. the store hasnt really been doing well before me and Q came. ive looked at the points that everyone else has got from that secret shopper and it is REALLY BAD!. I suppose thats why Eric is desperate to employ students liao.

So anyway,

Leadership presentation and maths quiz 3. both went FUCKING WELL suprisingly! I'm particularly pleased with leadership presentation. thought I would screw up the DISC profiling but it turned out much better than I thought.

just forgot one key factor of presentation which was not looking at the slides at all. but oh well, all in all, if not for that point, it was perfect.
lets hope it'll push up my grade for the individual assignment. Im gonna bombard the rest of the groups with questions next time. heh. evil me but so what? that's what ming sheng did to me

"who do you think is more effective? lee kuan yew or Goh Chok tong?" LOL!

maths quiz 3 was ok. just hope I get the full marks this time round unlike the previous two tests where i made super-duper foolish mistakes like writing an alphabet D for differentiation. mistakes like this that got me 50/100 for term test! sheesh

and System concepts just got a whole lot more interesting. heh.
WORLD CAFE IS COMING! WOOOHOOO!. but i still dont like the idea of facilitating with pri sch and NUS students. kena facilitate adults and little brats at the same time. hahaha

3 projects down( economics, leadership and problem solving). 3 more to go( qmethod,system concepts and comprog which I can hopefully finish in 2 days)

JIA YOU ALL! =)

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

qmethod test was rubbish. for sure im gonna fail this one. somehow everyone else seems to feel the same way. suprisingly most people didnt really do so well for pecon as well.


need to focus on the world cafe.

THE COSTA RICAN AMBASSADOR'S WIFE WILL BE THERE SIA.

adding on#

ESPZEN DIVISION 1

Hibs Social FC won against that crazy african team named Jaguar FC. so now Hibs social are on joint top with FC 204. well well well.... I knew this would happen ever since that FA cup match with them. an entirely mak saleh team.

I still remember one guy. mark windle. During the match I went flying into him shoulder-to-shoulder. the funny thing is...i was the one who intended to push him to the ground but somehow...without him doing anything,

I was the one who was left sprawling on the ground.
ITS LIKE BANGING INTO A BRICK WALL I TELL YOU


oh I should have NEVER watched that stupid video about chocolate rain from southpark. NOW I CANT SLEEP COZ HIS VOICE IS FUCKING IRRITATING SIA!


#$%!@

I cant seem to put the video here coz my com is nuts. go see it here

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EwTZ2xpQwpA

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speech day. I have never been more proud of my juniors in my entire life. =)
and a day full of sentimental feelings really.

so it was a first being a parade commander and i was shaking alot sia which was fucking irritating. heh. but all in all, im proud to have been there. its a position that not many people have experienced and its wonderful. so thats it...i was quivering with pride and honour. LOL.

i seem to have experienced a first for many things.

somehow it reminds me of all the times i had with my class.

from all those times we walk up the stage for prizes or performances
to the numerous bare-footed soccer games and boot lacing matches with at least a victory against every team.
to the sleeping in class, "having sex orgies" with the guys in the cosy corner, name calling
to the taiti games
to the rioting
to the "vibrator cum raping torture" of saufi
to the barbeques and outings
to the chair-throwing, punch and kick bashing of birthday boys
to the times the teachers get pissed off at us
to the times we struggle LIKE FUCK for all our subjects

heh. in fact i still remember EVERYONE'S register numbers and the numbers printed on EVERYONE'S jersey.

but dont fret.

"You are always who you have been thus you are never forgotten by anyone"
We'll meet again someday =)

I had this conversation with a taxi driver when I was rushing somewhere.

taxi driver: how old are you ar??
me: eighteen
taxi driver: HAHAHA. no really. whats your age?
me: eighteen.seriously. i still schooling.
taxi driver: HUH! WAH LAU EH! but you look so mature ( IN OTHER WORDS IM OLD LAH SIA!). I thought you already working and married.
me: nolah uncle.
taxi driver: no gf hah? guy like you confirm got alot of girl chase wan.
me: nolah uncle..if got alot of girl chase me...i confirm married already.

what he yelled next made me super shocked and amused.

"KANINA GO FIND GF LAH. Boy like you can confirm get. "

oh ya for the people who've been coming to my blog in secret just to find "something" ( sheesh) here's the so long awaited list BUT IM NEVER TELLING YOU THE VERY LAST ONE WHICH IS RIDICULOUS.

1) servant
2) covert
3) analyst
4) man o war (WTF?!)
5) steward (no. not the steward in an plane but as in a leader type)
6) politician
7) soldier
8) tactician

and I love this one the most. somehow it reminds me of that crazy mofo of a guitarist from System of a Down. He's still nuts btw.

9)DEVIL'S ADVOCATE

the moment I saw that, it made me realise how incredibly true it was.
There's thousands of alter-egos. trust me when I say that.

I daresay I have broken away from archetypes, causal reinforcing and balancing loops which generally seem to work in most situations. however, there's plenty of times when I realise a very dangerous effect that will take place due to that kind of thinking. oh no its nothing life threatening i think but very very intriguing indeed.

like for example...
1) to break spirit is to truly cripple
2) An agenda with increased confusion is thy most lethal weapon

dont understand? for your own good, dont bother.
For those of you who do...read on

Dont emulate someone's values because there will always be one who's bound not to have the same. Instead, look at the traits. traits will always remain THUS explaining the alter ego of your own nature. so simple yet so undeniably well hidden and elusive.

ok now back to work. this is the longest entry ever.
IF you read in between the lines and managed to link everything together, I only have to say

Welcome to my real life and let the fun begin.



"you're elusive" really but nonetheless..I still

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

*** and I were relating some stuff just now and he said one thing.

"You know better than anyone else that you entered a life of servitude. yet you strayed away. What happened then to those whom you serve and those whom you know you can guide?"


no answer

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

2.4KM TIMING HAS REACHED BELOW 8 MINUTES.


YEAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

now that's done...its time to go into OVERDRIVE!

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

clara belle.



a talent thats gonna rise up through the music industry like the jonas brothers. she kinda reminds me of Sara Bareilles. go watch her videos on youtube if you can.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

grateful. really grateful to every single person today especially you.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

computer programming- 71.25/100 (B)4CUs
principles of economics- 75.2/100 (B+)4CUs
quantitatve methods-76.5/100 (B+)4CUs
System concepts- 66.5/100 (C+)4CUs
Problem solving- 35/50(B) 2CUs
leadership- 61/100(C) 3CUs
Emaths2- 60.7/100 (C) 4CUs

GPA = (3x4)+(3.5x4)+(3.5x4)+(2.5x4)+(3x4)+(2x3)+(2x4) /25
= 12+14+14+10+12+6+8 / 25
= 76/25
= 3.04

not good at all considering the fact it will tally with last semester.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

i'll stay. so keep me

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

One problem after another. so for once, im going to reveal one.

Dunman's head of cca department put an autistic guy in npcc this year. his name is Frederico Almeida Jr(not sure about the last name). You can tell by the way he looks at people and the way he walks that he's special compared to other kids but he's a whole lot different.

Autism for one, is some kind of brain disorder. so he sees and does things differently from us all. He keeps running off elsewhere and causes problems for the other squads. especially the sec3s.

His recent doings came into light last week when the sec3s finally spoke up. im not gonna say them here. ask me personally and I might tell you. Perhaps we've been trying to nurture him the wrong way round. Somehow his wrongdoings seem to piss everyone off all the time because we keep thinking he's purposely doing it. But there's the error of our ways.

He probably feels frustated just like the kid in Taare Zameen Par.

I spoke to my mom about his case and suddenly, I find myself exactly in his place. For your info, I used to run out of class to the canteen before recess time during kindergarten days. heh. My teacher sent me to the headmistress and since she wasnt in yet, i was told to wait inside her office. BUT being me, I ran outside, circled behind the office and waited under her window. When the headmistress came in and sat behind her desk, her back was to the window of the office. So like some kid ninja, I crawled in through the window and scared the hell out of her. but that's because I have never understood school and its purpose thus my frustration and uninterest.

dramatic change from the person I am now huh?

so anyway,

A close eye and some guidance for him.
"something I should have done for others as well"

p.s
3 more days. for good or for worse, its now or never and to that I hold.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

And so I'm going to risk everything
risk looking like the biggest idiot and fool on the face of this earth
In hope for the best
hope where others fail
we prevail

doing something that should have been done a long time ago

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

went shooting today. haha. score sucked coz i was too happy shooting to realise i was in a competition! LOL!. been so long since i had some 'fun'

FI Dominic and Ezra have never shot higher than 198/200. haha. somehow no one has ever scored full marks coz Ezra set the precedence. dats what dominic said.

aaron n kah hwee did better than me though. our total score is 307. heh.hope mr zul and ms si did better though.

lets hope i can score better with paintball next week.heh

it's all meant to be
FOR REAL! =))

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

dishonoured.
how did something like this happen right under our noses?
AND IT HAPPENED TO THE GUYS SOMMORE.

Now I find so many things meaningless already.
every effort we put in was all for nothing.


siala even ms si scolded us.

its time to change and for drastic measures. enough is enough

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

I may be sleeping but look at my hands. IM STILL CLUTCHING THE PEN AND IT WAS WRITING.

This shows I am not lazy even when I am asleep. haha

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

I think I met an angel today. honestly.
what was said just proves one thing.

its more important than ever that something is done fast. time is running out.



PROJECTS ARE ENDING
IRONMAN TRAINING HAS RESUMED
ENTERPRISE HAS GOT UNDERWAY LADIES AND GENTLEMEN.

May God bless us.

oh and here's a quote to you
*keep your head up! =)

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

TO WHOEVER IS READING THIS

disclaimer: this is for real. however, viewer discretion is advised.

16 July 2008 marks the formation of the enterprise. We're gathering individuals of a certain calibre, quality, trait that contribute to the progress and hopefully the success of this venture but all are welcome.

You are welcome to contribute or submit any ideas to us. However, if you would like to do so, certain obligations are required of both parties. Therefore, if there are any queries, please contact me.

PLEASE NOTE THAT THIS IS AN ENTERPRISE SO PLEASE BE AWARE OF THE RISKS INVOLVED WHICH MAY INCLUDE FAILURE.

ok its damn formal but that's how we gotta do it right? anyway, entrepreneurship usually spurns alot of err...negativity when discussed. so yeah, if you wanna join, be prepared for a wild ride. it sounds crazy and unfeasible but that's the way the world is.

so feel free. anyone up to the task?

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

Who would like to change this world with me?

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

ive got to get a grip on my mind.


I think I went bonkers by buying that 1.5l bottle of vanilla coke and finishing 3/4 of it in 10 mins just to fall asleep. (caffeine has a reverse effect on me)

the net result: a dream of being chased by vampires like Will Smith in I Am Legend. michelle mccool as my co-survivor and the master of the vampires as a robot. after that, late for school and falling asleep time after time in class.

Im crazy,weird,fucked up,siao,mabuk,gila,messed up. I know. dont need to tell me.haha

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

the petrol is getting to me.

I got a chance to handle diesel today.

I think its the reason for all the blisters in my feet. diesel mixed with petrol. bad combo for my feet.

so anyway i finally met eric. he's one good motivator ( in my opinion lah). just minutes after he told spoke to me, everything was suddenly lifted. people smiled more, more tips( heh), and more people came to me (come to me like siao ah). even the weather seemed much better.

besides that, there was this guy with a tank that seemed as though it was consuming petrol every second. no matter how much I filled the tank, it just didnt seem to be FULL!. both of us tried filling it up and at last we gave up. its like pouring water into a bottomless pit.

oh ya. i served a particular family today. A perfect family. LITERALLY perfect.

The father was tall and freaking handsome. a bit like torres liddat. The mother looked like miss universe or something. beautiful. even the kids were good looking. 2 guys and 2 girls. for once, I had mixed feelings. being a gay or a straight guy. but seriously, the guys were freaking handsome. all of them were damn spontaneous also. laughing like nobody's business all the time and when i waved at them while they were going off, the whole bunch waved back.......

oh ya. miss fudlana and Q stopped by also. miss fudlana looks more like ms farah now. heh.

sooo...its back to work next sunday.

SATURDAY'S THE .38 REVOLVER SHOOTING COMPETITION! WHEEEEEEEEE!

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

Made a wish for you. sent it to heaven (since then)

Be everything that you need (A deeper meaning)

stand with you on a mountain (always)

You don't have to close your eyes
because it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

nutella scrapped over too much bread.

that's how I feel.

the speech day rehearsal was rubbish even though all the teachers and praba said it was good. its really ridiculous that the other CIs except shawn and doreen are not joining just because we dont have first U.

worse still, all the other teachers pushed me n ms si like siao. im doing the parade markings which is so FUCKING CRUCIAL and they wanna start the march in. siala, flag party havent even brief abih nak start.

If wanna practise march in only can ah. but then they asked for the WHOLE sequence. stupid shit. think 2 rehearsals which consists of a total of 3 hours is enough ah?

you know the answer well enough.

ZEERA!
GO RUN YOUR ASS OFF TOMORROW AND DONT COME BACK WITHOUT WINNING SOMETHING!
GOOD LUCK! =)


oh ya...its my 100th blog post. errr...hooray? haha. anyway, ive got work at 7-eleven. the outlet at the shell petrol station beside east view primary. near the place where st45 hang out every friday.

12-8pm and $4/hr.
working on weekends only.
ok lah. considering its weekends only

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

the computer in 23-5-120 really hates me. it wont show the programme output even though there were no errors. but when hiang tried... IT SHOWED! BASKET!. I spent 30 bloody minutes just figuring out what was wrong. and when I started cursing the computer with all the malay,chinese and indian vulgarities, it decided to restart itself. #%$@!^



AND
the ironman training is working.


IVE NEVER FELT THIS ALIVE!

next week is crucial
1) Pecon project submission
2) System concepts archetypes
3) leadership powerpoint slides
4) comprog flow chart
5) qmethod fishbone diagram
6) comprog graded lab
7) shooting competition(?)
8) maths test and assignment deadline
9) ironman intensifying

nice

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

leadership tutorials in the morning are usually a dread but this morning...was awesome!

it's definitely helped alot.

System concepts was great also. a first great tuesday. honestly.

If you're wondering what the F*CK i was talking about, its like this. my systems concepts project topic is entrepreneurship. In my group however, we're going for a "world cafe" which is kinda like a meeting among all the university and poly students about entrepreneurship. more like a platform of discussion for entrepreneurship. somehow this project has kinda spurred me on to start my own business in the future which is something ive been contemplating for a while. all the stuff ive been doing recently kinda adds up to entrepreneurship.

TFG, FNB experimenting and all dat

The whole idea is there. I dont expect myself to be moving on to university really unless i join the army and make it OCS. now thats just a saying.


so yeah, entrepreneurship doesnt really go well among most singaporeans given the failure rate. only 34% of entrepreneurs succeed thus the sceptism and disbelief of entrepreneurship success.

BUT who knows? if i ever start a business or whatever, contact me! I'll promise I'll employ and pay you handsomely (at YOUR own risk and discretion) HAHA!






#so keep me. i'll stay

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

IRONMAN TRAINING! @#$!%

that 5th sign was the last straw. really. I cant deny what is going to happen but when? better be prepared now.

EXERCISE REGIMEN

monday: 0600-0630 (short sprints. distance = 800m)
1800-1900 (long distance. distance = 1500m)
1930-2015 (swimming. distance = 400m at least)


tuesday: conditioning maybe? sounds like a bad idea though


wednesday: 1530-1700 ( cardiovascular ) damn basket this one.
1705-1800 ( flexibility ) WHICH MEANS SPLITS! go on. laugh.
1900-2000 ( swimming. distance = 800m)

thursday: survival ( you wouldnt want to know what im gonna do.really)

friday: NPCC and research for TFG

saturday: rationing/ endurance ( this is the most cracked up.heh. not gonna be vulgar unlike the two ladies at my tagboard. )

sunday: none


food for thought: this was posted in the straits times after the death of the SAF Nsman. A former nsman said

"Back in the old days, we were treated like dirt. food was bad and there was no air conditioning. Singaporeans are getting more fit but less rugged."

what do you think?

anyway, its confirmed. I'm going for the PPCDL license course in August if HQ doesnt organise one by then. aiming for the lifetime license which means no renewal. sooo, beware ladies and gentlemen. If you piss me off, I could kill you, load your dismembered carcass onto a boat, steer it all alone in the middle of the sea and dump it there. HAHA.

TFG WILL FINALLY BE ABLE TO GO ON MOTORBOAT AT LAST!

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

All my life, I lived by one code and it has never been wrong.



"In life, there are some things we can never get. because we are meant for something greater"

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

FARSHAD CHAND BIN FEROZ CHAND

I TOLD YOU MIXING ICE CHOCOLATE AND COKE DONT GO WELL TOGETHER.

NOW I FEEL LIKE IM HAVING PMS! #%@$!#*%

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

I hate doing this but enough is enough

so

Did you ever think of others before you said all that? Have you ever thought what other people are going through at this period of time? you may not know because they do not tell you. and you could say its their fault for not telling you but arent you equally secretive? Did you think your actions affected others in the way you always thought it will?

if you did, well done. but thanks for not doing anything either.

You think people like us are so free? that we're not struggling with all our might?

Did it ever occur to you that we have problems of our own but we keep it to ourselves? Have you ever tasted the despair of people who feel that their futures are going down? well,let me show you.

You're all alone in your heart because your friends are unlike those in secondary school. The subjects are a whole lot harder because its totally different from what you anticipate it to be from secondary school. You wonder why you grow more tired each day because all you do is sit down in school and not exercise. You try to push yourself up time and time again but all to no avail. the more you push yourself,the more you despair. And everyday you try to find solace in places where you have found before but then again...even that has changed. Every morning you walk with a despairing feeling to your destination because you dont like it at all. you cant even be yourself. and when you think you've found your answer, you suddenly realise you havent. and then, the inner conflict begins and no one can help you because they dont understand you either.

I know how that feels. because I've been there, done that. TP law 2007.

THAT IS HOW OTHER PEOPLE ARE GOING AT THE MOMENT. If you think you understand, you're wrong because it all makes sense to you in your own ways. You've never tasted the TRUE meaning of despair. and if YOU think im not doing anything to help, let me tell you WHY.

1)schedule. you've seen what I have to do for school work. its all in my previous post. Our leadership group is nonsense. Im the only one who goes for our lectures and have a tinker's toot of what to do. Im lucky I got Soe Win for PSPS, zul aisyah and Is for Qmethod, jack for PECON and world cafe, and bernard for comp prog.

Ive been put overall in charge of speech day parade and nco course. BACK TO BACK. previously before that I was overall in charge of the store logistics to the new room and overall in charge of the drill competition and away at CHOA CHU KANG HQ FOR ANNUAL PARADE FROM JAN TO APRIL EVERY FRIDAY AND WEDNESDAY. YOU TRY AH. FROM TP YOU RUSH TO OLD CHOA CHU KANG ROAD AFTER SCHOOL WITH ONLY ONE HOUR TO TRAVEL, CHANGE AND REPORT IN FULL UNIFORM. you stand in the hot sun teaching 40 people,carrying heavy logistics and coordinating another 200 people. Debriefing afterwards is for almost 2 hours long with all the senior officers and our commandant. and when you reach home, its almost 1130. But you cant rest much either because of another training the next day. you say skip tmr's training? I say you're fucking dishonorable just like everyone else. if you dont come down,there's no one else and who's to train them? OC unit ah? its the same thing all over again. I rant all the time because I'm singlehandedly doing things and all I ask is either you help me or keep your beak shut and stand aside if you dont want to help. drill comm also hardly anyone else came down regularly. now speech day i have to coordinate 5 CCAs alone altogether.and to think im placed as the parade commander. DONT GET ME WRONG. I VOLUNTEERED FOR THIS AND I LOVE WHAT IM DOING. but there are times im put in charge of things and I have to accept whether its reluctantly or willingly because no one will. MOST IMPORTANTLY, its for the people NOT ME so I have to do my best. THAT is the FACTOR that has always influenced my decisions.

2) Im equally fucked up. trust me. Nightmares are one thing but when they occur in real life exactly as it was in your sleep....well, lets just say you better do something. you can say its just a dream. But what if I told you the contents and you were in it? besides, this isnt the 1st time my dreams have become real. trust me when i say, i am doing something about it.



So if you think im playing a fool or trying to be funny, let me tell you I dont have to time to waste on this sort of guano.

If you think im being selfish, you've never been more wrong in your entire life. There's not a day that goes by where I've tried to help someone in my life. its just a matter of whether im able to help, listen or do something about it.


Seen enough? then welcome to a side of me you never thought you'd see

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

To everyone, all the unreplied messages,missed calls, MIA and broken promises.

I am so sorry.

A matter has arisen. Something which concerns some people. and I cant reveal it bcoz of ramifications.I know it sounds fucking stupid and dumb but if you're in my shoes, you'll understand.

Im not running away. dont get me wrong. Duties are duties. school,family, npcc and religion are important. But there's an AGENDA. which will never deviate.

ALL THIS is not about ME. im fucking fine. Ive got good grades for my tests, im selected for the TP world cafe and E-innovation thing.im in good health, good spirits, good shape,good friends around me and whatever. There's nothing about me to worry about.

BUT THERE'S SOMETHING ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE IM WORRIED ABOUT.

To be blunt, im the only one who knows what's going to happen to them and im the only one who can do a damn thing about it.dunno how long this might take.really.

A storm is coming.

p.s
Congratulations to my brother and kak Lisna. im an uncle now. May Allah bless both of you with happiness always.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

No matter
how tired the body
how confused the mind

it will give the answer.
I'll be out of contact from everyone for quite some time.



p.s
Here's something for YOU.
it goes without saying but I thought you should know since I hardly show it.



I love you.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

If we were all the kings and queens
I'd probably be your only servant in this world

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