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Friday, August 1, 2008 // 12:21 AM

I dont understand that feeling of apprehension everytime I try to help Frederico.
It maybe due to the fact about what he has done to other people but I cant be like that.
The whole unit cant really focus their attention on just one guy not especially if his own squadmates are ostrasizing him.

oh sure I have a choice to not help him. But on the other hand, no one is.

Ive sought help from counsellors and everytime I do so, he just reminds me of myself when I was young.

Forget honour. Forget glory. Forget achievement. I dont believe in any of that crap when it comes to other people. I'm not helping him for any of that.

It may not be my duty but I am compelled to do so.

Trust me when I say I am fully aware of the price to pay and the things I am forfeiting.
I've been shirking away from my duties, my work, my studies and most regrettably,my FRIENDS! even though I may be physically present. both from unit, area, school, workplace and outing. it may get even worse but I believe in what's best and can only pray for it.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye