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Wednesday, August 13, 2008 // 1:58 AM

I just remembered something.

its been over a year since I dropped out from law.
Best decision of my entire life. really.

TRIP DOWN MEMORY LANE
*ZOOM BACK TO APRIL 2007*

ahh, law days. everyday a long day even though you're surrounded with friends because I missed the wonderful days of 5B'06. coupled with fucked up things here and there. like they said

"you never know what you got till its gone."

and how rightly so. its almost as if a part of me died sia. I never really got along with some people in law who clearly adapted to poly life SO SUPER DUPER GODDAMN FAST LIKE FUCK! because we're all so different to the extent we cant comprehend everyone's difficulties, background, experience or even social norms.

Everday you drag your feet to school and just hope the day goes past as fast as possible with minimal effort and each moment you try to find something to get you going just to overcome the task at hand. You think of nothing but getting this day over and done with as fast as possible.

Life was never meant to be lived dat way. you cant waste away every single day out of stress.

In retrospect, one would laugh off these things because he is stronger than he was before but turn the clock and imagine all the tough times. GODDAMN, I USED TO REMEMBER HOW PISSED OFF I WAS WITH EDWINA EVERYDAY! HAHAHA. but now, I realised how right she has been all along. I'm still indebted to her and all the useful things she's taught me. even my classmates from time to time. as paralegals or lawyers, they have qualities I could like. fortunate to have met these people really.

oh ya zeera, I think you know kimberly from TPiranhas Roar. She was my law classmate.

Cant believe Im actually relishing those bad times. but hey, that's what makes people stronger right? things can only get worse before they can get better!

I wonder Mr J is doing. He's gone back into practising law but now as a senior deputy public prosecutor. just saw his name in the newspapers last month or so when prosecuting someone about a rape case.

Gerald also went out of law and went to BSG. now in year 2 also. and Saron has also followed his footsteps.

so anyway, a huge but very calculated risk. quit law and risk being called for NS or stay and suffer needlessly without learning as best as you can.

Its either 'kill myself and be reborn again" or " live on and suffer". and so going against EVERYONE'S will

I handed the withdrawal form on the 1 August 2007.

and back to those days of slacking with nothing to do.

*Zoom back to the present*

19th OCTOBER I WAS OFFERED. AND SCHOOL STARTED ON 21ST OCTOBER!. I think I'm the very last person to be offered a place in BZE sia. haha. how fortunate!

Thank God for choosing this course for me. I used to remember how disappointed I was on 19th October when I was offered a place in BZE. heh.
Trusting to what was best and taking another calculated risk, I clicked the ACCEPT button.

now, its 3 more days to end of school and how bittersweet this first year in BZE. so wonderfully blissful.

and now I'm a whole lot better than I was before.

and then most surprisingly, this quote(more fucked up quotes again!) cropped up in my brain. it sums up my whole life so far.

"AIYAH FAIL NOW ALSO NVM! NOBODY FAILS ALL THE TIME WHAT!"

I'm definitely going to have a lot of DRASTIC FAILURES in the future. especially with the business but so be it. I LOVE IT!

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye