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Thursday, January 1, 2009 // 2:01 AM

A new year.

this year's resolution is simple.

To help.

God has been very kind to me.
1) I got back up from my feet after dropping from law. Now I'm really excelling in BZE. From GPA 2.17 to GPA 2.54
2) My efforts in NPCC werent gone to waste. dmn np got the gold award back again. I got into Area 8 comm. Ms Si rewarded me at year's end. the A8 CIs are getting better.
3) My brother got married and Kak Lisna is now pregnant. due in feb 2009
4) My sister got a job right off the bat from University.
5) My mom's got less complainy to me. ( ALHAMDULILLAH! FOR THAT!)
6) I learned much from the 1st aid course, npcc annual parade and camps.
7) I'm more mentally stronger than ever.
8) I'm older. heh.

Alhamdullilah for all that.
but something is missing,

And that was to help. I've got everything I need. But what about other people?
I said it before that my purpose was to serve.
Oh yeah i've done dat in npcc and all. but to me, it isnt enough.
You might say that the best thing to do is just listen to people's problems but I know there's so much more I can do than JUST THAT!

And everytime I dont, that overwhelming sense of guilt just poisons me to the extent where I lose sleep. And I'll just do that same old trick of saying "I'll do it tomorrow!"

People say dont intefere and all but really, is that gratification for just being lazy or hiding a different agenda?

Like that incident before Raya, nobody came forward coz they were just trying to avoid any inconveniences.

For God's sake, there are things so much more intangible and greater than inconvenience itself.

alright so people might say I'm shooting myself in the foot.
my reply to that is...I can take it!
honestly I can, people dont call me an oldie for NOTHING!

and then, they might say im being a perfectionist or an angel.
my reply is...what wrong is there in helping? well of course i shd let things go along by themselves like when the NCOs commit a mistake or what. they shd know how to solve that out by themselves. but im talking about major issues.

Call me empathetic and all.
I know what I'm doing.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye