Saturday, January 31, 2009 // 5:27 PM
KIDS THESE DAYS!
want an example? look at my tagboard.HAHA!
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
Wednesday, January 28, 2009 // 11:42 PM
It's hard to find time alone for yourself. Even a king whose constantly surrounded by subordinates and peers. Even harder is to find someone who would empathise with you.
An excerpt from the comic book, The Black Panther.
Like the king, its rather difficult to explain my actions. Even if I do, I explain it in ways that people understand.
But its more instrumental than it seems.
In all honesty, I'm a damn weird man. oh yes i am. I'm proud of it though. My methods are even weirder!
However I choose not to give people the answer they deserve or better still, i dont answer. Reason being?
They dont understand.
Dont get me wrong here. I'm not depressed or in need of some comfort or help.
I just pity the people around me.
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so anyway, went to watch the Singapore Vs Jordan match. spore won 2-1.WE GOT A SOUVENIR. haha. okay lah. its nothing much. Daniel Bennett tossed us the H-two-O bottle he was holding to farshad.
He's gonna be framing that up in his room. haha.
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self-made quotes for the day'
"I'm crazy. But I'm thankful for that or else I would have never had the courage to go beyond limits."
"I live to serve"
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
Saturday, January 24, 2009 // 2:22 AM
I was wrong. Now that I think back, was I any different than them?
In spite of our attempts to attain, did we really forget why we were doing this?
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
Wednesday, January 21, 2009 // 5:41 AM
You disappoint me.
I have never seen such nonsense in my entire life.
You just made a fool out of yourself by thinking you know.
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
Sunday, January 18, 2009 // 9:37 PM
Of course its a scary world out there.
But you gotta have courage because there's so many others depending on you.
you just never know
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
// 12:59 AM
I TAKE THIS ROAD AND THERE'S NO GOING BACK!
the stakes are clear. the ramifications are clear. I know what I'm doing.
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
Tuesday, January 13, 2009 // 12:56 AM
A moment away from work.
the same feeling of not doing much. I realise there's so many things I can do. So many things I can change. I guess I need that same new found courage I had when I was out of law.
That same beautiful vision. The one that has always made me fight all my life. Something better for the future. I guess this is why im meant to be a servant? coz I fight for others as well?
I hope so.
" I see the very same road you're taking as I once took. Forfeiting so many for other things. I'd give the world to you but I know I can only stand and watch you from afar, always praying."
ALWAYS!
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
Saturday, January 10, 2009 // 11:34 PM
Hey all,
Please dont expect proper updates from now on.
NPAP09 has gotten me REALLY BUSY. even on the first day!
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
Wednesday, January 7, 2009 // 5:27 AM
Suddenly the world itself beautified tenfold.
I consider myself really blessed to have been given that.
While it was short-lived, it was enough to last an eternity.
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
// 1:40 AM
For your own sake, GROW SOME SELF RESPECT FOR YOURSELVES!
Talk about stressed out life but its you who made it hard by slacking like hell during the lectures, not bothering to even listen and then blame the others who dont help you.
And then go around disliking people who do so well or are so enthusiastic.
Go some place where you truly belong.
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
Tuesday, January 6, 2009 // 1:47 AM
I dont really take time to look at myself in the mirror literally.
until today. oh yeeah, a huge eye opener more effective than that splitting headache I had this morning.
Somehow as these days go by, I feel different.
More impervious to frustrations, anger or sadness from anyone or anything. Godness, its been ages since I felt any of those things!
I just feel either one of two things at a time.
1) a sense of purpose followed an inner frenzy.
2) a sense of calm and relaxed mind.
A sign perhaps?
Ok wait. I know the various answers coming in later on. old age, being senile and bla3! HAHA. so no need to tell me
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I am human.
There is only so much I could do
though I wish I could have done more
I'll stand here, utter prayers to God
and watch from afar
for that is my rightful place.
But if ever in need,
Reach out and grasp my hand
Goodnight =)
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
Monday, January 5, 2009 // 9:31 PM
Whenever that striped tommy cat comes along, he just never fails to scare the guts out of everyone
AND HE TRIED BITING ME!
i just got cured!
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
// 4:03 AM
I'm sorry but some journeys must be made alone.
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
// 12:10 AM
Whenever I'd meet up with my friends, they'd ALWAYS have a question ready.
sometimes I dont say a word. or the answer is self-gratified.
Ever wondered why?
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
Friday, January 2, 2009 // 1:50 AM
this is annoying.
everytime i lie down to go to sleep...the coughing and pressure on the lungs get even worse and i end up NOT sleeping.
So I'll end up walking around and then i'll feel much better but then again, if you dont rest, it gets worse!
#$!%@?
and the cough syrup not helping!
double #$!%@?
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
Thursday, January 1, 2009 // 2:57 PM
Passion.
Neither could the fever nor the cough could keep my mind swaying from the thought of sat.
A match and the selection.
50 years. The Golden Jubilee as we name it for this year's parade.
I've always realised that parade days are always beautiful at HTA.
especially looking back at Cheryl's photos of CIBTC POP.
That was truly passion at its highest and most insatiable!
But I've heard from yong cong is gonna be at expo?
haha!
if it is...i'll be damn grateful. less travelling time and transport costs!
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
// 2:01 AM
A new year.
this year's resolution is simple.
To help.
God has been very kind to me.
1) I got back up from my feet after dropping from law. Now I'm really excelling in BZE. From GPA 2.17 to GPA 2.54
2) My efforts in NPCC werent gone to waste. dmn np got the gold award back again. I got into Area 8 comm. Ms Si rewarded me at year's end. the A8 CIs are getting better.
3) My brother got married and Kak Lisna is now pregnant. due in feb 2009
4) My sister got a job right off the bat from University.
5) My mom's got less complainy to me. ( ALHAMDULILLAH! FOR THAT!)
6) I learned much from the 1st aid course, npcc annual parade and camps.
7) I'm more mentally stronger than ever.
8) I'm older. heh.
Alhamdullilah for all that.
but something is missing,
And that was to help. I've got everything I need. But what about other people?
I said it before that my purpose was to serve.
Oh yeah i've done dat in npcc and all. but to me, it isnt enough.
You might say that the best thing to do is just listen to people's problems but I know there's so much more I can do than JUST THAT!
And everytime I dont, that overwhelming sense of guilt just poisons me to the extent where I lose sleep. And I'll just do that same old trick of saying "I'll do it tomorrow!"
People say dont intefere and all but really, is that gratification for just being lazy or hiding a different agenda?
Like that incident before Raya, nobody came forward coz they were just trying to avoid any inconveniences.
For God's sake, there are things so much more intangible and greater than inconvenience itself.
alright so people might say I'm shooting myself in the foot.
my reply to that is...I can take it!
honestly I can, people dont call me an oldie for NOTHING!
and then, they might say im being a perfectionist or an angel.
my reply is...what wrong is there in helping? well of course i shd let things go along by themselves like when the NCOs commit a mistake or what. they shd know how to solve that out by themselves. but im talking about major issues.
Call me empathetic and all.
I know what I'm doing.
I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye
