Now my knee hurts. Lets hope it gets better in time for area 12 atc next week!
a tired but fulfilling day.
The world champion freestyler, SEAN was there! wonder how much he was paid to come here all the way from France. Azri, the singapore freestyler champion was there also. Seen him so many times at the tampines 969 soccer court. haha.

Guess my team did well after a long time of not playing soccer. well done guys!
the word of the day : CANO!

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There's this feeling of tremendous disappointment.
I'm tired of being disappointed of people.
I'm worried for almost everyone.everyday.
If only we could have a little more faith and trust,
everyone would be so much more happy than they are now.
Sometimes I wish people are as lucky as I have been so far in life.

sadly, its not going to happen huh?
Oh well, just a little prayer for all of you.
Just keep making things better each day eh

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its now already 1230am. My niece has been screaming her head just before I fall asleep!
So I have to go comfort her and all. Finally she seems pretty comfortable with me although she keeps thrashing around when I carry her.

the worse part is...she only keeps quiet when i sing Liverpool and Manchester United theme songs!

oh..there she goes. time to sing again. haiyo

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

Lets break it all up into quotes of what was put through to me.

"They fought as a family. Teach them to take care of each other because each other is all they are EVER going to have"

"Dont wallow in the old ways of life. Join them together with the new."

Two quotes that could prove useful in my unit. Let's put it into effect next training!

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this is dumb.

Since I dont have a SOCCER ball in the house, I practise with the closest thing that resembles a SOCCER ball. you wouldnt want to know what it is. haha.

Shall I invest in a SOCCER ball? im tired of kicking those pancit SOCCER balls around the house.

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Fishing with the Gods on sunday!
who knows if the Fishing Gods business may ALSO work out one day?

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Procoi quiz. did badly for it.

BARCELONA WON! WOOHOO!. wasnt a waste to stay up i guess.

Suddenly, after a few urgent smses, I'm in a soccer tournament. this saturday at the kallang cage from 8am to 5pm. Team Beeleaf needed a goalkeeper and so here I am. Ready-made for em. lol.
This means I'll have to forgo training on saturday.


Anybody wants to tag along with me?! haha

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The first H1N1 case. It was just a matter of time huh?
Lets hope the OSIP and OCP dont get cancelled!
Orgcomm test today was great.
lucky my group did a letter of complaint for TBC!
Procoi test tmr. Kuning didnt come today. haha.

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Quote the phrase,

"Of all the things I've done in life, I must have done something right to deserve this"

I was scared too but
So grateful for the outcome after we met.
It was wonderful. treasuring every moment of it now.
Everything's fine. You have my word
Thank you so much

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

I shall keep this as neutral as my mood allows me to.

4.45am in the morning and I see something that spoiled the entire day.
A post from a colleague.

So disgusting and dishonourable. It turns out we were right all along.
Its the same biased-ness. FIVE years of my life I've prayed that we would never have this again.
All the actions and words were issued under a mask, hiding the true intentions.

And to think we could have done something about it. But it doesn't matter anymore.
HE IS GONE.

You know who you are.
If you happen to read this, I'm warning you.
Dont ever come back and taint them with your ways. Let's make it clear that I dont ever want to see you step within that compound and even TALK with anyone.

You have no shame at all.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

A beautiful day. =)
and in case you're wondering, I still am in love.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

Back to the learning process.

What a weekend!

EVSS annual camp was a real eye opener.
A billion things learnt within 3 days. heh.
As a matter of fact, I was so busy absorbing everything that I didnt even have time to talk!

I'd have to say EVSS system is a complete turnaround of dunman. but I LOVE IT!
Somehow EVSS reminds me of my cadets days more than Dunman does. weird huh?
but anyway, I was fully indoctrinated in their ways!

Enjoyed every moment of my days there though i was just the first aider. haha.
I'm already missing it leh.
Pics will be up soon if i can get em.
Thanks for inviting me guys!
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I'd turn this whole world upside down for all of you. gladly.
and for you too.

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Before you start thinking about how boring your parents were,
Go take a look at yourself.
They got boring by working hard just to pay for your clothes,school and the what-nots you have.
So before you start thinking of clearing up the world called "parents", perhaps you could try
DE-LOUSING your wardrobe of all the clothes they bought for you.

I couldnt have been more disgusted by today's events. As much as I try to keep this to a neutral level, this is plain and downright disgusting.

BUSINESS PLAN IS UP AND RUNNING!
Just a few more tweaks and research, and it'll be ready for presentation to the lecturers for TP Entrepreneurial Fund.

Insya-Allah it'll go well aite?
All im worried about is the area of expertise and manpower
SOOO...

Job offers anyone?! hehe

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Its 2.30am.
Woke up from sleep.

My left leg was CONVULSING. It was almost as if it was alive.
the left side of my 3 quarters was wet.
Apparently it was the pus from the wound in my hip that I got when I was playing soccer earlier in the day.

That sliding one-on-one save grazed my entire left hip. Sucks being a goalkeeper and you have to do that on a pitch that is mostly covered with STONES and not GRASS!

So anyway, there was so much pus exuding from my hip that the gauze didnt even manage to hold.

Now all im worried about is the infection. if any.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

PANGS OF LONGING!

I WANT TO GO FISHING!
I WANT TO USE THE JALA AGAIN SOMEDAY!

This is what happens when you watch Animal Planet and see schools of fish swimming around in the ocean with my most FAVOURITE FISH!

THE BARRACUDA!

http://www.flickr.com/photos/paulakechichian/268834860/


I still remember the first time i got a barracuda. 4 years ago at pasir ris park, sungai api2. Waded out into the swamp and threw the net. Didnt even expect to get anything but there it was! It's not as big as the one in the picture.

The next time I got a barracuda also happened to be the last. same river but different spot and slightly bigger.

but the best fish I got... A SEABASS! ahh..it was a good day!

Nvm nvm, the sea shall await me and I will return! once i get my powerboat license!
time to save up money!

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

Finally, I got my groove going.

Managed to go jogging with nurul on wednesday though it was stupid of me to be jogging 3km at such a fast pace after long inactivity. Now both my legs are cramped. cant sujud properly when praying.

I finally got MSA peer tutoring over and done with
Entrepreneurship group wasnt so bad. lucky i didnt group with those guys. wouldnt have learnt anything either.
Drill comp training starting soon.
My health has improved after a SEVERE DIET!

and i FINALLY got a sign.
I'm grateful for so many things. Alhamdulillah.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

eh im tired of getting epiphanies and inspirations just before im about to fall asleep!

Why cant all this happen in the middle of the day and not at night?
then next morning i'm woken up by the New Found Glory - Make your move song that i set as my alarm. I'll drag my ass over to the table like a zombie, turn the damn phone off..and then fall back on my bed and snooze until its half an hour before my first lesson.

nice.

Fishing photos will be up soon. just need to resize em.

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Just today, I received another pleasant surprise. Other than the doctor's appointment of course.

I just read the newspaper today and found a small article on Teo Ser Luck, the parliamentary secretary for MCYS, mentioning on how trials are conducted for the Youth Olympics. Singapore, being the host nation, have some standing.

I dont want to be complacent but I hope this ruling passes to the other NSAs. It's a great step to fulfilling a LIFE LONG dream. Since young, I've always wanted to RUN and even represent Singapore. In the meantime, I'll just keep on training myself.

Anybody up for a crazy challenge to join the Youth Olympics with me?! haha. Or at least be a volunteer?

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Since you little buggers are bored with reading,

Feast your eyes on LONG OVERDUE PHOTOS!
haha








The trainers getting ready to march. Full dress rehearsal day.



Wonder why we're looking behind? We're waiting to see if there's anyone else coming. haha. That is one of the norms of the NPAP 09 trainers. =)





going for briefing.






This is how our rehearsals are like. Stand in the hot sun and wait.



Me and hongliang waiting for the car. I'm proud that we were aligned! took us ages and countless practice to everything in SYNC! BUT WE DID IT!



During the preview.



Last time opening before the actual day



GOH boys.



NINETY DEGREES!



CFP



Dats the Parade commander. DSP Quek Meng Kiang.



Supporting contingents.



Guard of honor contingents.



Gold unit flag party



Ceremonial Flag party



FULL PARADE!



Hongliang marching out



GOH girls. Right dressing.




Arrival of GOH





STILL IN PERFECT ALIGNMENT!



Open car door drill sekuad satu



Sekuad dua



Inspection



March pass and march off



Dats contingent 1 or 9 i think.



Ceremonial flag party



Contingent 7. Dats Clarice. I stepped on her left boot during our trainer's selection and it HAS NEVER BEEN SHINY SINCE THEN! HAHA!



All those in No 1.



Hongliang, Nicholas the guard turnout commander and me. A bit dark ah and I KNOW IM DAMN SHORT!



atiqa, me, nas



my good buddy, hongliang!

UP NEXT...fishing photos

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Today was the very first training.

I guess it nearly made me worse.
to the extent where I was already feeling sick when I joined the asses for shisha. Just for the record, I dont sheesha. My health is already too poor for me to do that. Oh ya susu,

your cap is with me. haha. come and get it.

I had a pleasant surprise today.
I just got to know one of my friend's grandfather was in the Malay Regiment that fought for the defense of Bukit Chandu during World War 2. just like my grandfather (mother's side). Who knows if they fought side by side together?
And if we do make it in the army, would this be a family tradition that we are passing on?

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HAPPY MOTHERS DAY to my dearest mother who has faithfully kept this family going and constantly brought me up to be the person that I am today. love you mother.

I just need to make this clear.
If there's one thing I'd dearly love to see, is for my peers to rise up above me especially if im leading them.
I've trained those below me to rise up but now I want MY PEERS TO DO THE SAME. I want to see them prosper, progress and treasure so much of the things they've learnt because I believe THAT is the 2nd most important job of a leader.

I'm getting this close.THIS CLOSE!
My whole mind and soul feels its so intangible, SO REAL!
As a matter of fact, this is probably the only real thing I've felt for MONTHS!
Can this really be happening and is everything falling into place?
It has to be real.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

I'd like to keep these people anonymous out of pure respect.

Three months ago, I came across a group of people that are probably extinct in this world. The first time we met was probably not what you'd call...'a smile and a good handshake with introductions'. It was rather awkward for me because from the start, I knew there was something different about them.
Well, maybe its not their existence that matters but rather the ideal or morals that they uphold which I will not explain here. I thought I would never come across such people in my entire life. Unlike the usual everyday lives that we go through, these people hold something more intangible and more precious to them.

Every morning, they go through their daily chores with such discipline and perfection. It's almost as if they're unbreakable. Yet they remain humble and very polite. But underneath that exterior is a very spirited and determined bunch. Somehow it reminds me so much of the times where people had a greater sense of honor.

Their courage and calmness is enough to make me feel ashamed of myself though they dont mean any disrespect. But you know what im getting at.
It's like there's nothing in this world that can even make them quiver or even dodge. Every difficulty is faced straight on and overcome with much intensity and vigour.

I spent some time with them, observing their movements. Every little thing they do falls into place so perfectly. Its like making a jigsaw puzzle, combining two separate pieces on different ends until they fall into place slowly at the centre. The end result is amazing.

These lot sure are indomitable. I'm not talking about how they safeguard their beliefs but rather how they cant be pushed around so easily unless its for the best. There is definitely something about them that makes me feel like they're part of something huge and thats about to go down.

And now, they've asked me to join them. I've never been bestowed a greater honor in my life than this simple request. There's so much I can learn from them and perhaps even a change for the better.
Alhamdullilah.

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My mother absolutely repulsed the idea of me joining the army. haha.
yet she refuses to tell me why.

so I'm back to the old question.
SPF or SAF?

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this is crazy.
I'm an old man

but if there's one thing i learnt,
everything is somehow beautified tenfold when you're in love.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

My back feels kinda weird for the past 2 days.
My left kidney feels like its thrashing around.

Anyway, I should be going for NPAP 09 trainers dinner today but because of my BACK, I cant even leave the house, much less move around properly. haiyo.

I guess its really time to watch myself properly.
and no, this is not a sign of old age.

I AM NOT GETTING OSTEOPOROSIS OR SOMETHING! (this is for you syafiq!)

yeah, still in love.

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I have no words to express this.

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/xin/20090505/ten-085-death-expressway-horror-flick-pr-3c1b9bc.html

Go read. If you watched Jangan Tegur already, you'll see the connection

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Offer accepted.

Now my whole life will NEVER be the same.
Every little dream will be fought for.
Every piece of work dilligently done.
Every moment treasured.
Every love kept.

because I'll have to leave all of this behind very soon. ( NO IM NOT DYING OR GOING TO WAR! Dont get any bright ideas ah you all!)

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

Isnt it funny how we are the pawns of fate?

Just this morning, my entire life got turned inside out 360.
Here's what happened

1) I got another offer

2) My eldest brother is getting married soon. I really hope this momentous union will make things better for us all.

3) I might be going for Overseas Student Internship Programme. FOUR months away from home.

4) Doctor's appointment. NOT GOOD

'Jangan tegur' was damn disappointing sia! you can even laugh at some point of time in the movie. heh. ken tahan one hour of not going to the loo because I thought the movie will reach its climax very soon. #$!%@

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My mother once told me.." Some things are just about being a good person"
AND THE MORNING EVENTS PROVED HER RIGHT! AGAIN!

Why is it that she is ALWAYS right?
Things that are done without her blessing often dont get far and vice versa.

And she knows me better than I know myself!
I suppose thats why they call it "Mothers Wit' eh?

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Now I've been expected to TEACH KIDS!
This is gonna be worse than last night's nightmare of four gay guys trying to attack me lah!

It's not that I dont like kids.
I just dont like the VERY personal questions they keep asking me! and more than half the time I cant stop myself from giving them the answers I would never dare release to ANYONE ELSE!

Forget anger management. give me CHILDREN MANAGEMENT. and no, I'm not going to take a Diploma in Early Childhood Education!

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

I have to sacrifice my time in NPCC.
I have to sacrifice my time in Triathlon.
I have to sacrifice the time I spend with my family and friends.
I have to sacrifice the time I work.
I have to sacrifice the time I use for studying.

This better be worth it.
It's bad enough I can hardly do any of the above mentioned stuff anymore.

For one nanosecond in my life,
everything will start to make sense. heh.
I sure hope so because its all about self-respect.

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Kids.

Of all the things I feel so insecure about, its KIDS!
I get super uncomfortable whenever a kid and I cross paths!
Which is probably why I dont like to be a primary school teacher.

Here's a scenario I will NEVER FORGET!

9pm at pasir ris park. I'm fishing on the bridge at sungai api2 but im using a casting net or JALA as they call it in malay. 2 kids and their mother pass by and stop to watch. We end up chatting, well more like they asked me questions bout fishing and suddenly one of the kids asks me if I could teach him how to use the net!

For some reason, I felt REALLY discomforted.
Its the same with other kids. Whenever I'm asked to teach them something, I'll get very reluctant or uncomfortable.

Goodness, I really feel like some father or a grandfather when I teach them. THE SAME GOES FOR NPCC CADETS but at least its not so bad with them coz they're much older and mature anyway.

Someone help me understand. Why am I no good with kids?

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I wont brag about knowing everything in my life.
But I've lived plenty. which is why so many people think im O-L-D.
Yet I found something new today.

This morning was the biggest disaster ever. Were we so determinedly focused on accomplishing our tasks that we forgot the real reason what we were doing this for?
I've always known we were rather headstrong and liked to be visionaries but i guess this time round we shot ourselves in the foot.
Now its time to clear up this mess but the consequences are really so drastic.

As much as I hate sacrificing so many things, its not a choice thats up for me to decide.
People keep telling me we deserve better and bla3 but it all comes down to God's will.

And if this is His will, then so be it. Things will get worse before they can better but thats the way it really is.

Well, at least we should take comfort in the fact that there's always a day tomorrow.
Like I always said,

"If you dont get what you want, you're meant for something better"

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Never judge a book by its cover.
Sadly, many of us, myself included, judge an individual on first impression.

Thursday's sports climbing session showed me a different side of many individuals.
A real eye opener for me. I'm glad I went there.
Thanks to Siti Suria!

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My niece, Farah Farhana came over today.
FINALLY SHE'S STARTED SMILING AT ME!
Maybe I'm not so bad with kids after all eh. haha.

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I'm aware of the readers at this blog. Fellow CIs, cadets, friends and so many other people I dont know.
Nonetheless, here goes.

There are so many other females in this world. There's thousands of super-duper astonishingly beautiful ones too. So why would one among all of them enthrall me the most?

Just like the story of the Black Panther. Its a great challenge for a steel-cold person to open his heart to love.

But this is something I am willing to do. There are no obligations. No one is forcing me to do anything. I have no underlying motive or underhanded intentions. This is my own free will.

Yes, I AM in love.

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Ah. Everyone's falling in love. haha.

How blessed they are. How grateful I am to be as well!

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If we were all the kings and queens
I'd probably be your only servant in this world

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