Day one of training.
One word only.

Maut.

my whole body,legs included feels so cramped. Every bending movement is excruciating.

DUCK WALKED AROUND THE FIELD FIFTEEN TIMES! WE WERE LYING ON THE GROUND IN AGONY AFTER THAT!
$#%@!

Mom's gonna stop working soon i guess.So I'd have to sacrifice things a lot more now. heh. Luckily my sister is already working. Alhamdullilah.

This level of activity and stress is INCREDIBLE! I was already so damn tired n sleepy yesterday during modsim lab. I dont suppose I have time for anything else liao. damn.

theory test on 3rd sept! wish me luck!

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

I'm set for life!

Three calls received today. all from three different organizations.
I cant say it out here of course.
There's also a hint of trepidation over missing out on quality time with friends and family like today.
But nonetheless, its a wonderful blessing!


It's a long, hard slog to be fighting for every dream.
Perserverance has never deserted me. EVER!
So it'll stay that way.
And that fight begins TOMORROW!

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

I knew there was something wrong.
They're coming.
I can feel it

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

POWERBOAT COURSE ENDED!

Somehow I'm disappointed with myself over today's practical session. If only I had focused much more, it would be more purposeful. But somehow my mind wasnt on the job today. But all in all, a first time taking command of a vehicle.

The only bad parts I experienced was that the anchor hit the pillar when I was berthing! Even the instructor went "oh shit", and I hit the life buoy during the man overboard attempt. dammit!
There was only a little wind today but at one point, the wind from the port was so strong that the boat turned to starboard even with the rudder to port!. Something to take note of during practical

Even the lunch I had didnt make any difference. It was almost hallucinating. I just realised the park next to RSYC is home to many squirrels. Saw lots of them today. Will upload the photos when I get em.

I feel exhausted after that. wonder why.

Anyway, the THEORY TEST AWAITS! time to study........
My whole body still feels like its swaying with the sea. I cant even sit properly sometimes.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

I got a little bored from reading the powerboat notes for tmr's practical.
So I came up with a little so-called nonsense of my own.

All the wonders and enigmas of the world were brought together
Its beauty though, is diminished in the eyes of a solitary being
For he has seen beauty undefined in all its glory
Unshackled and not bereft he became
And it was by his gaze that he found

it beautified everything else.

Though it lasted a second that seemed an eternity,
There was nothing more wonderful nor more saddening
till the end of days

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

Here's something I'd like to show any fellow npcc CIs or cadets.
I was browsing through my fellow NPAP CIA buddy Hongliang's blog and found a blog post with SYFOC 2006 video montages.

Go take a look at it here. I hope the same sentiments I feel right now will run into you as well. And if you're for a rekindling of passion, the videos will definitely help.

Go see it here.

http://vimeo.com/5560182

http://vimeo.com/5559959
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As I was on my usual routine of late night cycling by the pond (hoping to complete that YEAR LONG RESEARCH OF MINE!), the thought of going to Hanoi, Vietnam crossed my mind.

What are the implications of spending TWO MONTHS away? A good chance to test my level of independence in a totally new urban environment. In other words, testing the level of booksmart n being more streetsmart.

I'm more worried bout my loved ones though. Whose gonna do the housework? HAHAHA! I CAN IMAGINE MY SISTER'S CRESTFALLEN FACE WHEN SHE SEES THE PILE OF CLOTHES TO LIPAT! On a more serious note, I already feel very apprehensive about leaving them. The same few questions everyone would ask, I would definitely ask myself when away.

Who's gonna look after them? Are they gonna get through all right? How will they manage? and so on and so forth.

Call this sentimental but compare OSIP to NS. OSIP you get 3 other people to stick with for two months. NS, you make more friends as you go along. OSIP you come back two months later. NS you come back every weekend provided you dont get sent to DB.

And the most worrying thing is the mode of communication available in Hanoi. Imagine if I dont get Internet there? write postcards to singapore!?! nice!

As this post continues, there's a feeling of longing to see EVERYONE even ili,susu and siti suria whom I just met yesterday!..which reminds me, I should be grateful that the duration is NOT 5 months unlike iliee's osip!.

Wonder how she's gonna manage.....

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

My instincts told me that tonight was not a good night for me to go out wandering again.
They say instincts are one of the many gifts from God. It helps us distinguish the right from wrong, danger to safety and so on and so forth.
I've had this feeling for quite a few months though.

I feel like part of a plan. like being used in a game of chess; be it the pawn,the bishop or whatever.
Like some huge event is coming up and I'm unknowingly a part of it.
And yeah, I dont think its gonna be anything NICE.

Whatever it is, lets just make the best out of it. I've handled every shit thrown at me in my life. Why would the next shit be any different?

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

HAD TO PUT A STOP TO THAT MISSING HOSE IN THE TOILET!

In other words, I tried my hand on a skill today.
PLUMBING! HAHAHA!

All I did was to install a hose for washing beside the toilet bowl because it was damn troublesome using the showerhead. The only problem was the O-ring for the hose was missing because the contractor anyhow whacked it out last time.

But anyway, another thing learnt today. AND NO, IM NOT GONNA BE A PLUMBER! I KNOW WHAT SOME OF YOU ARE THINKING!

2 projects down. 3 more to go. haiya.
As an added measure, I took up NYAA (gold). signed up at the very last minute.

I'm gonna make things happen on my own now. I'm tired of waiting for the others to make a move. Before I go for OSIP, the powerboat license, kayaking and sailing will be MINE!

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

Mom asked me to take up sailing conducted by her friend.
I would have disagreed if it wasnt for TWO WORDS she said.

"IT'S FREE!"

So, WHY NOT? hahaha!. nothing to lose eh.
And I'd be able to teach the little brats when I finish the course.
So, its a go-go-go!

The call of the sea is now stronger than ever. first it was boat license, then sailing and in the future, kayaking. What's next? DIVING? hoho!

I'm strongly considering a maritime career. even mom thinks I shd go for it.
What do you think?

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

So it's confirmed.
For my OSIP, I'm going to Vietnam,Hanoi.

feels like im going on holiday rather than an attachment.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

Now here's a challenge laid down to me.

Go take a boat.
Navigate your way from
Raffles marina (west)
to Raffles Lighthouse( southwest)
to Harbourfront (south)
to Bedok jetty(south east)
to Changi (east)
to Punggol (north east)

That's one challenge.
Another one is to head to Pedra Branca!

This calls for basic navigation!
I'm RELISHING this challenge!

The perils of the sea awaits!

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

Theatrics. haha.
How mesmerising when someone uses it as a smokescreen.
Sounds just like the sort of thing I'd do.

Well, I'm back to the crossroads.
Do I go into this direction or the other?

Lets review a few options.

1) The civil service.
SPF or SAF. Everyone knows about the disposition of Malays in these two vocations. I wont elaborate on it. But I'm actually Indian leh (only on my IC) haha.

2) Quality Management
I can continue with the area of expertise in my course n go on to be a service engineer or business process exec depending on the future. Which reminds me...I saw this job offer for 3rd year BZE students outside the staffroom.

"Japanese ship wanting two students for bla3 yada3."

Damn! makes me wish I was already in 3rd year. haha. But then again, I've no idea why they're asking for BZE students. I cant seem to find the link.

But nonetheless, I've always been fascinated with processes and this is one option.

3) Sports.

Ah wait, hold that thought in your brain. Lets not talk about sports in Singapore. I've always believed it all depends on the individual and rightly so.

4) Entrepreneurship

Now here's something almost long forgotten. Mr Eu just recently introduced a new initiative for TP students. I dont see whats there for me to lose though.

5) Maritime.

An old friend of mine hooked me up with a shipping company (cant remember the name). Its near where the old clifford pier used to be. But that'll mean I'd have to study further in the field of Marine Engineering or nautical studies.

Wonder what implications my eyesight would have on this.

6) Government service.

Plenty of opportunities. But its a tricky one.
That aside, I'm glad I took up PPCDL. Finally doing something I like and a passion to distract me.

Whats next? Back to studying.

33 navigational lights to memorise. 26 flags to understand. 13 islands to locate. Now this is the type of challenge I'm looking for!

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

You're aggravated?
You swoon
You sigh

Why deny it?
It's alright

I cant believe how cliche this all is

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I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

Been bored the whole day coz of my leg!

So I spent the whole day reading my powerboat notes.
Yesterday's lesson made me damn high.

Horsburgh lighthouse is apparently the best fishing spot to go.
AND

PPCDL also applies to jet skis!. If I do pass, I CAN RIDE A JET SKI!.
WHOPEE!

time to study.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

Powerboat course was awesome!
I feel so motivated to the extent that I'm gonna study the notes later!

Suddenly, the prospect of a maritime career is looming.

A ship's captain?
who knows!

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

This weird phrase came to my mind.


"I am one who defines the epitome of gila babi."

Go on. Laugh.
I know most of you here will be screaming your asses off. haha.

back to work for me.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

Allow me to describe the feeling of a bare wound in midst clotting.
The effects are similar to that of my brother's leg after his accident 3 years ago.

Imagine a syringe and a needle. You feel it going into your skin and withdraw all of a sudden. Now, imagine that feeling on every inch of your left shin and knee.

Yup, thats what my left leg is feeling right now.

I duno how on earth I got through 10 hours of work today with that kind of feeling.

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

Should never have slid on the astroturf.
reasons?

1) I slid the ball out for a corner which led to the last goal.
2) My left knee and entire shin has had the skin scraped off.

As a matter of fact, the wound turned PALE WHITE. and it STILL IS NOW!

I'm gonna clean it off with dettol later.
All I can say to myself is...

"HERE COMES THE PAIN!"

So anyway, I was grateful to have met up with st45 after duno how many months. I'll make an effort to come down more next time aite.

I'm going to do something crazy. It so calls tests my threshold for pain. Not gonna elaborate on that. all of you will after my blood especially..........
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I cant change what you've chosen but for God's sake and mine, please. No more disappointments?

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

A proper post to update the things.

DRC came and went. The event turned out to be much better than I anticipated and not such a WASTE OF TIME as most people thought it would be. As a matter of fact, the reality check really knocked some sense into everyone's heads. Just goes to show how much we sucked in drills huh?
It's such a shame the others werent there. It could have been really useful for them.

Syafiq and I turned out to be damn motivated after that. The reality check hit us hard especially and we're off with all our ideals to work.

And because of this, I'm not stepping down from my post. not yet.
As for Area 8, its time for change, and that change will happen.
This bullshit has to stop.

Supposed to go Area 19 Atc this weekend but its been postponed. aiyo..babi flu betul.

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Powerboat course starts on tuesday. I'm left with payment of 180 dollars which explains why I've been busy on weekends and thrifty on my money. haha.
There's a slight hint of trepidation that many people dont pass the first time but as i said, it's mine.

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My personal training officially begins tmr.
Back to those good old days of crazy ironman-like trainings!
All for the hopes of making it in the army.

I'm actually considering of re-joining Simei United.
It's time to live life to the fullest.

As they said in POTC,
"TAKE WHAT YOU CAN! GIVE NOTHING BACK!"

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

It's finally over!


Who would have thought the time we took was much less than expected. All those countless nights piecing every piece of the puzzle and constant checks.

It turned to be a memorable experience more than a disaster after all.
Nonetheless, we remember the hefty price we paid.
There are measures in place to prevent a re-occurence
I feel like a changed man after this whole episode. I feel and think differently now.

Thanks for sticking with me aite? you know who you are.
Closed chapter.
Now I can get back to my life once again.


"Where others have failed, one must prevail to the end"
and prevail we did.

Alhamdullilah

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye

If we were all the kings and queens
I'd probably be your only servant in this world

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