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Friday, September 18, 2009 // 9:41 PM

They say death is peaceful once you get over the initial shock.

Like knowing you're leaving this world and entering a better one. Perhaps for one nanosecond of my life, I may have felt that. Not literally of course because I felt it all in a dream.

All I remember was dragging some kids to some safe place but it wasnt big enough to accomodate other ppl including me and there was nowhere else to go.

I didnt panic.

Instead, I welcomed that embrace of death. The manner in which I was gonna die didnt matter because it felt as if EVERYTHING you've done in your life made sense and the whole jigsaw puzzle of your life is complete. You're free and devoid of all emotion. There's only this glorious sadness that surrounds you and brings great peace to your heart and soul.

Then there was only one thing left to do, ask for forgiveness from people. But there was only time to ask from one person..but he said I didnt have to.

It's strange that such a dream comes to me in the holy month of Ramadhan.
As for that one person, I'm beginning to think if it was just someone in disguise. Someone whose presence has been with me all along but just didnt know.

Perhaps...?

I'll be back when you call me; no need to say goodbye