But not so now.

Because its used for my friends and family. A small percentage for personal expenses of course.

So today was NPAP 2011 selection. The turnout wasnt as big as everyone anticipated. Especially the PC selection. There was supposed to be more people from what I gather. Unlike other NPAP selections, this one felt so different. First was the introduction of what I deem, the hardest drill to execute!

THE HIGHLANDER!

So PC selection was done by executing the highlander. The trainer's selection was a rather awkward one though. Not my place to say what happened but I wish to not see it happening in front of us. There's nothing good coming around if dissent is displayed for all to see.

Nevertheless, it was a day well spent!

Sigh. Immediately after selection ended, im dragged back to earth! Tomorrow back to work!

That plan is NPAP 2011. The first phase begins tmr.

And so I shall prepare my uniform for the very last parade in my npcc life.

I hope that this undertaking will bring some light and inspire confidence that people have lost. Yes, it is a select few that this plan revolves around.

Insya-Allah it will work. For the well being of others.

LETS JUST HOPE NS DOESNT INTERFERE!

So I failed my ppcdl prac test for the 2nd time. But unlike the 1st test, this one was sooo much well done. It was just unfortunate that I had an immediate failure. Otherwise, it would have been a perfect score! Nevertheless, the failure has given me confidence to try again and fuel-ed the desire to pass. At the same time, it keeps my focus and not let my feelings get the better of me during the test, as pointed out by the examiner.

Too excited..then drive too fast. Too nervous...then cannot move.

All in all, it was a great lesson and self-reflecting day despite failing. =)

Lets hope the buoy doesnt drift away next time like it did yesterday! tsk

Edit:

Orange pastilles weren't exactly my favourite chocolate until one day. Before that, it was just the normal milk chocolate pastilles. Anyway, it wasnt the physical aspects of the chocolate that made it my favourite. It was the context in which it was given

To constantly struggle and push my limits.

When I'm old and cant move as much as I used to, I'll look back with great fondness and say

"Life well spent!"

For God's sake,

Please wake up from the smokescreen that has been placed in front of you.

Embrace the reality of your lives!

Embrace its challenges and opportunities!

Sigh.

Its disheartening to see people often relating their lives or the community to the media, movies or stories by misinterpreting its meanings. There is just so much in reality that they refuse to see or come to terms with..

For example, setting unrealistic views or outcomes of life and end up becoming WELTSCHMERZ. For people of all walks of life, there's only so much inspiration or guidance that you can get. But you have to be careful and understand how it applies in your life.

Like those extremists or terrorists who misterpret the Qur'an.

Dont let anything tear you away from the truth of reality because its just another step to your own downfall!

I'm starting to feel disillusioned by people around me. Will we never learn? Astaghfirullah

But among all those people, only one matters to me right now. The Almighty.

I stumbled upon something a few minutes ago.Something that I had always half-heartedly wanted to see. But after a few minutes of browsing, I felt so terrible. Masyaallah!

No elaboration on what I came across. But it was a wake up call to observe and listen!

The error of my ways. sigh.

It is my duty and purpose in life to serve.

Thus, I shall remind myself that I am a servant of Allah.